lose five pounds? drink less? be more organized? what’s your new year’s resolution? if you can say it, if you can breathe it, if you can tell me, you haven’t aimed high enough. it’s january 3 and you should be scared of yourself.
last year at this time i was shaking. i had posted a video on facebook telling the world i would be visiting every one of my facebook friends. which video, of course, was ignored by ninety percent of my facebook friends but . . . it’s the ten percent who paid attention who made the difference.
that ten percent of my friends said “yeah, we’ll see you soon!” and that’s the point–seeing facebook friends, meeting people, traveling, getting out of my house, it’s scary to me. it’s the way i aim high. your personal “aim high” is different. maybe you’re scared of going back to school. maybe you think you have forever lost the fat war. maybe you believe you will never have dinner at the ritz carlton because you won’t ever have that kind of money. whatever it is, announce it. tell everybody. tell me. once you say it, you own it. my resolution is to . . . .
okay, so yesterday, i finally got to meet mr. f2fb friend #292. i first came to know frank skony because he was a producer of a show my son eastman was in and he’s done a lot of costume and set design for shows both of my sons have been in. two years ago, i noticed he was posting about dental work he was having. he’s a midthirtysomething guy and he’s saying i don’t like my teeth and i’m going to do whatever it takes so that i am okay with my teeth. i like that! i admire that!
i have ended the year seeing ninety percent of my facebook friends that i had on january 1, 2011. if your new years resolution is to make a million dollars, i don’t think you’ll be unhappy if you make nine hundred thousand. if your new years resolution is to lose fifty pounds, you’re not going to quibble if you lose 45. and if your new years resolution is to de-hoard and de-clutter your house, it’s going to be okay if you have one really awful closet.
i don’t know my new years resolution for 2012. i’m a little behind. i’m a little samoa-like. i’m recovering from 2011 which became all consuming. your resolution for 2012 should be all consuming too! and i’m with you. so you make the resolution. and you announce it. and then. . .
so think of the thing that defeats you. the one thing that would make john wayne say “get on the goddamn horse” and that’s what you’re going to do this year. and i have to figure out what puts me down on the dust next to the horse and i will tell my friends. all of them. facebook included. tomorrow. . .