tomorrow i will meet a lot of new friends. they might or might not be facebook friends but they are part of my new years resolution of last year and this year. last year i endeavored to meet all 325 of the facebook friends i had. i reached ninety percent of my friends.
this year’s resolution is to take what i have learned about friendship, about travel, about anxiety and about doing things even when you’re a little bit afraid and i’m going to find twelve facebook friends who want to meet me! i already have two meetings set up which means that i’m on target for this year’s resolution.
tomorrow i will meet a whole group devoted to anxiety and panic attacks. these are people who know what it feels like to be me! they are the anxiety and panic attack support group of bolingbrook and i will learn a lot from them, i’m sure. they meet on the first and third wednesdays of every month and give each other encouragement. oddly, i’m a little anxious just thinking about going there–it will be dark and i don’t like to drive at night, there will be people i don’t know, i’ll be expected (or i’ll expect myself) to be witty. i will fail at that last one.
but i have spent so much of the last two weeks sitting in my house reading messages from facebook friends, many of whom share my difficulties, that i know that i have lost practice at leaving. i need to go.