i have been surprised by how quickly i have rediscovered pajama days. sitting in front of my computer, reading a novel, taking hot showers just because i can’t keep warm in this drafty old house. it’s easy to have one pajama become two pajama days, particularly when there’s facebook.com and a chicago snowstorm.
i have realized that for all of my travels last year–thirteen countries, 292 friends, and so much love and support–i know that it’s really easy for me to fall back into bad habits of staying home. if i do it any longer, i will end up right back into the cycle of having panic attacks, being scared i’ll have a panic attack if i go out, and then not going out of my house because of that possibility of the panic attack. so this morning, i started off with a two hour run in the forest. . .
on wednesday i leave for the first of my 2012 f2fb trips. east, right into the path of more snow. it’s going to be good to force myself out of the house. although the pajamas feel so comfortable and the pillows so soft. . .